ONE MONTH OLD!


So I'm a little late (what else is new?) with Ellie's one month update but none the less here it is! It's so hard to make time to do household stuff, let alone sit down and type anything up! I miss posting and keeping you all updated but I enjoy taking care of Ellie more. 💕


 

At her One Month appointment, she weighed in at 9.9 lbs and has grown to be 21 and 3/4 of an inch! She's growing like a weed and I've had to officially set aside all of her newborn clothes! 😭

She is still wide awake as ever before and we had a week stretch where she refused to nap AT ALL during the day! I literally thought some days I was going to die of exhaustion, but we made it people! I'm still amazed that I used to need ten hours of sleep to function but now broken sleep has become the new norm. During the day, she's hit or miss on napping. Sometimes it might be an hour, and others I'll be lucky to get ten minutes at a time. 💤 At night, she's still waking up every two hours to eat, so its safe to say we're still in that tired all the time stage for Jimmy & I.

One of her favorites besides eating, is bath time! She absolutely loves the warm water and I swear she smiles every time we wash her hair! It's the cutest thing to see her little baby body wrapped up in these giant bath towels! We lotion her up and she smells so good! Post baby bath has to be one of the most euphoric smells out there! I feel like such a weirdo sometimes because I smell her constantly when I'm rocking her to sleep or just snuggling her! Its the best!

Another thing she really loves is car rides! She hates getting into her carseat but once she's in and snug she almost immediately stops crying. We took her on her first 'road trip' to Orlando this past weekend and she slept the entire way there and back! I took advantage of Jimmy driving and snuck in a nap of my own! 😂 I was really nervous because we would be gone the majority of the day but she did great! She woke up to eat and when she was getting changed and then back asleep! It was such a good day and I'm glad that Jimmy and I got to spend time together with her.


First Family 'RoadTrip'! 💗

I can't believe how much she's growing! We're just trying to enjoy every moment of her! Especially since I got back to work in less than two months! 😪 I feel like she'll never be ready, nor will I for that day to come but I'm happy that I will get be with her even half the day when I do have to work. 

Until that day comes though, we are so glad to be with each other at home! 



THREE WEEK UPDATE!


I feel like I say this over and over again but where is the time going? And how the heck is it already the middle of March?! As of Tuesday night, Ellie was officially three weeks old! And I'm so so sad that next week she'll be a whole month old! Please someone get me another box of tissues and wipe my tears! 😭

I mean just look at this precious face!




The last three weeks have been such a rollercoaster! We've had many sleepless nights in our house, the dogs included! Ellie is such a particular sleeper. We are finding she has to be completely zonked before we can put her down to sleep after feeding or changing her. And if we're lucky she'll stay asleep but most of the time she'll wake back up and we have to start all over again! It has been draining and I honestly dread nights and sleeping. Its hard but I know its only temporary so when its just her and I awake at night and I'm rocking her to sleep, I just keep reminding myself that she won't be this little for long and these nights are few and far between. And then the emotions just keep rolling until I don't want to put her down! 😂 Especially when she cracks a smile when she's almost asleep!

Overall, she is doing amazing though! She is eating like a champ and takes about three ounces at every feeding. At her doctors appointment last week she had gained a whole pound and I'm anxious to see how much she's gained at her one month appointment. I'm starting to notice her little rolls on her thighs and even around her arms started to plump up and she has a tiny double chin starting to form! I just can't help but kiss it every time it sticks out after she's done eating! She is doing great with a bottle and has definitely shown a preference to it over me. I think mostly because its quicker and she doesn't have to work as hard so I have been exclusively pumping over the past two weeks for the most part. I've been producing so much milk at times its hard for her to latch and it will get us in a good routine for when I have to go back to work. Which is right around the corner! 😿

We've been getting out more often in the past week. Jimmy and I have been taking advantage of the weather and taking walks in the evening. She seems to like being outside being that she looks around and doesn't cry. She's also done really good when Jimmy and I took her out to dinner with us one night and even on her first trip to Target with my mom and my sister. I find myself constantly checking the time when we're out in fear that its almost time to pump or for her to eat. Everything is by a schedule now. Tick tock! If I wasn't super obsessive about time before having her, I certainly am now!




I've also had to start packing away some of her newborn clothes! She is getting so long that her legs are scrunched up and it seems like hardly anything will zip or button comfortably for her. I feel like every night I have to put something aside that doesn't fit and it makes me so sad inside! I want to save everything but I know it isn't practical nor do I have the room for a second wardrobe. Luckily, I know a few people who are having little girls so I can gladly pass them on to a good home. Everything about her growing makes me so emotional! Don't e even get me started about changing her last newborn diaper last night. I literally cried while trying to put her back to sleep and trying to keep from waking Jimmy! 😂 I was definitely a sight for sore eyes! 

Life has been so different but also so good! I love spending the time home with her and I can completely understand why moms choose to stay home with their littles until they go to school. I feel like she constantly needs me, even when people are over helping us out. I get anxious when she cries and I have to hold my tongue when I feel like people aren't "doing it the way she likes". It's hard letting go and letting someone else gain control of your babies care. I'd rather go without and care for her then feel like she's missing something that could make her more comfortable. Some days its noon before I realize I haven't eaten or had anything to drink but we're making it work. These are the days I know I'm certainly going to miss, these are the days when our life is truly happening. 💝 And honestly, as hectic as they seem, they are absolutely perfect days! 

Until her one month update! 







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ELLIE'S BIRTH STORY!


Excuse me as I cry my eyes out knowing that as of 10:39 last night, we officially had a TWO WEEK OLD! 😭 These last fourteen days have been like no other and everyday I thank the universe for this little baby that Jimmy & I created! Through the sleepless nights, the dirty diapers and the struggles of constant breastfeeding, Ellie has brought such immense joy to our life and even though these past two weeks have FLOWN by, I'm so excited to see what our little girl will grow into! 

Trying to do anything with a newborn is pretty much exhausting, let alone putting together blog posts but I decided that I wanted to share Ellie's birth story - it was such a life changing moment for Jimmy & I and its a moment we never want to forget! 💕

So if you don't like details, I'd advise you to just skip this post, but for the rest of you guys here goes: 

As most of you know, Ellie had no plans on coming into this world on her own. My last doctors appointment was the Friday after her original due date and she still showed no signs of making her big debut. The weekend came and went and still no sign of her. It was planned that if she didn't come sooner rather than later then I would have to be induced so we were put on the schedule for induction Tuesday morning at 7:30am. 

I remember I was so anxious the night before (and weeks before that to be honest) I barely slept. I had worked myself up and read every induction story there was to find on the internet - which is a terrible idea people, so don't read anything online! I was making myself more and more antsy by the minute and counting the seconds before I no longer had little girl in my belly. 😓 Jimmy so kindly took me to Dunkin Donuts and I forced down a sandwich before our arrival to the birth suites. It was less than an hour before I was admitted and ready for induction. 

Ready or not, it was time for Ellie's birthday! 




We got settled in our room and my midwife rounded around 8am. She was pleased that I was already dilated to 3-4 cm upon arrival to the hospital so we decided it was best to go ahead and break my water to get labor jump started before we resorted to starting pitocin. I didn't progress hardly any in the few next few hours despite being able to walk around and bounce on the labor ball (not that I really wanted too after having my water broken <--- insert gross face here 😣) so we went ahead and started with IV pitocin around 10am. I didn't start feeling contractions until about an hour or so later around 11am and even then they were bearable. Every 30 minutes to an hour my nurse would come in and up the dosage of medication, making them the contractions come a little quicker and longer, but still, everything was bearable. 

I continued to bounce on the labor ball and walk around until about 2pm when I decided I should get an epidural because my contractions were starting to double on top of one another without rest in between. Again, it was still bearable, they just took my breath away and I had to find a focus point but I figured induction would probably only get worse from here so why make it harder on myself and little Ellie girl? 😬

It took about an hour for the anesthesiologist to come to the room and I'm glad that I asked for it when I did. By 3pm I was 6cm dilated and my contractions were getting pretty strong and still continued to double on top of each other every so often and I could feel my whole body starting to shake whenever one would come on. Its such a scary feeling not knowing what is happening to your body and not being able to control it. It was all I could do to just succumb to the contractions and let my body shake until the anesthesiologist was done. Jimmy was able to stay in the room with me and it was such a relief to have him there holding my hand during the entire process. I'll never forget trying not to move during contractions and and just thinking how thankful I was to have him there by my side for this entire experience. 💕 I thought I loved Jimmy before, but nothing makes you appreciate someone as much as when you truly need them for support. 

The epidural didn't hurt. I just felt a little prick when it was being numbed and I felt a little jolt to my left hip when it was being placed. I didn't have any headaches or side effects afterwards but it did wear off eventually which I'll get to in a bit. But having it placed wasn't as big of a deal as I had made it seem in my head. I'll probably get another IF we decide to do this again! From about 4pm to about 7:30pm I was able to rest. I still had feeling in my lower body, it just felt as if they were asleep and tingled whenever I turned from side to side. 

At shift change I noticed a lot of pressure suddenly and I started feeling contractions again. These were MUCH more intense than before my epidural was placed and after hitting my little pain button as much as I could, anesthesiology was called to come check on me. Over the course of about an hour  my contractions had become so intense without any relief from the medication boluses I was receiving there wasn't much else to do. At about 8pm I started throwing up uncontrollably (Jimmy later referenced the exorcist scene) and I think with my cursing it was probably pretty dang close to that. 🙊 After the third medication bolus from the anesthesiologist, I was so beyond pain, all I remember is crying and just apologizing over and over again to Jimmy and my nurse and my midwife! I don't even know why I was saying sorry, I just remember thinking I was being such a big baby about everything. Sorry again guys for my emotional train wreck! 

Shortly after all of this chaos ensued, I was finally dilated between 9 and 10cm and they wanted me to start "practice" pushing. Like what the heck is even practice pushing?! Not knowing what the heck I was doing and feeling the worst pressure in my pelvis and pain in my entire life, I just did what they told me and pushed like I was taking the biggest poop ever! Gross? Most definitely! Real life? You betcha! It took a whopping TWO. WHOLE. HOURS. of pushing until finally little girl was about to be born. With every push, I just kept bouncing back between thinking how exhausted I was and how I couldn't push anymore to how every push was just one less pain I'd feel and she'd finally be here! 

At exactly 10:39pm my midwife told me to reach down and I was able to pull Jimmy's and my daughter into this world! I just remember looking at her and just thanking whatever force is out there for bringing her safe into my arms after everything! Jimmy never left my side and I was so thankful to have him there the entire time telling me how proud he was and encouraging me!  

It was at the moment our lives changed forever and we became parents! 💖 


Jimmy holding our daughter for the first time! 


The best feeling in the entire world!


Ahhhhh! Swoon! 😍

Because I had such issues with my epidural, my midwife told me I pretty much delivered naturally so there wasn't any problems with me getting up and walking post delivery. After we held her for quite a while, they weighed her and did all her newborn assessments. She weighed 7lbs 8ozs and tested negative for any birth deficits. All I could do was stare at Jimmy holding her and devour any food they brought me! A turkey sandwich never tasted so dang good! I'd never been so hungry! Like ever! 😂

The only two things post delivery I remember was just feeling such happiness, definitely the happiest I've ever been in my life! And thats not the hormones talking, its so true! And Ellie pooped all over me right after she was born! All over my stomach and down my leg! It was like a welcoming to motherhood!

We were moved shortly after into our own room on the mother/baby unit late that night where we just stared at her until the early hours of the next morning!


One Day Old! 💞


We stayed in the hospital just under two days. Ellie was a little jaundice so she had get her tan on a few times and we were finally able to leave after her evening levels showed she was treading down. Looking back, those two days we spent there are such a blur now. Its hard to look at pictures because time has flown by already and it makes me so sad but also so happy! But we had plenty of visitors and people who showed such love to us and our little girl! 

We had the best care! I can not thank the nurses enough who helped deliver Ellie and took care of us afterwards! They seriously have a gift for what they do and I wish I could show them the gratitude that Jimmy & I feel towards them everyday that we have with our little Ellie girl! Words do absolute no justice for how thankful we are for helping to bring our daughter into this world and caring for us immediately after! 💝 

Our first night home was such a blur looking back. Jimmy and I were absolutely starving by the time we got home around 9pm. I held Ellie at the table and Jimmy and I split a digornio pizza! 😂 I remember feeling so antsy about the night ahead of us I could barely get down a slice. We changed her diaper and let her sleep in the footie pajamas we brought her home in and put her down for bed. I don't think I slept at all! I kept peaking at her making sure she was still breathing! Something that hasn't quit yet, even now two weeks later! 


Prepping for our discharge! 


FINALLY going home! 💘


Three Days Old - First Doctors Apt. 


Twelve Days Old! 😘😭


Time really is passing so quickly! We scheduled her one month appointment in two weeks with her doctor and she's already gained a whole pound since her first doctors appointment! Again, you can find me in the corner crying! I've already had to start stashing away some of her newborn onesies because her head is too big to fit through the tops of them and her newborn diapers are starting to feel a little snug around her legs! 😩 But even though she's growing so quick, I'm getting in as many of these newborn snuggles as I can. I'm trying to find the mindset that the laundry and the dishes can wait because she's only going to be so tiny for so long and I want to soak up as much as I can with her! Having her fall asleep on my chest is my absolute favorite & when I see her sleeping in Jimmy's arms it takes everything in me not to cry out of happiness! 😍

My apologies ahead of time if this post seems thrown together. Its been so chaotic this week as Jimmy went back to work! Blogging has seriously been the least of my worries but we are doing so great! We love our Ellie girl and we are just so over the moon about waking up to her every morning!



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CAKE MATERNITY PRODUCT REVIEW!


A few weeks before our little Ellie girl came into this world, I was completely scrambling for the last minute items I thought I would need in order to make life a bit easier once she arrived. I had no idea what to expect so I pretty much bought everything & hoped for the best. Fortunately, a few days before I was induced I was also approached by Cake Maternity about sampling some of their products! Excited and eager to add to my stock pile of baby items, not only for Ellie but for also myself, I happily obliged! 

It was such a sweet surprise when I received the package on our first day home from the hospital! I felt like it was a little welcome home gift! It took a few days for my milk supply to pick up and come in but when it did, maybe TMI - it came in in full force! I was pretty excited to have these nursing bras ready to go and wear! 




Cake Maternity gladly sent me two of their products of my choosing, so I decided to pick two bras that not only could I use while breastfeeding but also later on if needed. Before getting pregnant I was also a fan of seamless sports bras for workouts and comfy bralettes to sleep in at night so I knew I wanted something similar if possible. Ultimately I choose: Cotton Candy Seamless Sleep & Yoga Nursing Bra in Aqua and the Rock Candy Luxury Seamless Nursing Bra in Black. And I honestly was not disappointed! 



Before receiving these products, I hadn't ever heard of Cake Maternity so I wasn't sure what to expect but I was pleasantly surprised by the quality of their products upon arrival. They came in such a cute little wrapped box with an accent bow that tied it all together and I couldn't help but not want to open the box for fear of ruining it! 😂 

Pictures don't do any justice to how soft the material of these nursing bras truly are! They're mostly made out of Nylon with the exception of the trim which has made all the difference during breastfeeding these past few days! I seriously never thought I'd be praising and saying hallelujah to nursing bras, but given the last week and a half, these bras are definite must-haves for any new or expectant mom! 




I'm not going to lie, I've pretty much lived in these two bras the last week which has caused multiple loads of unnecessary laundry! Compared to a few other nursing bras I have purchased I definitely prefer these two over them. I feel supported - which is probably the most important thing during breastfeeding! With all the new added weight on your chest and milk production, anything extra is just plain baggage, literally! I also don't feel constricted which is important because again, carrying around milk all day, I've learned any little movement can become uncomfortable real quick!

Details of the bras can be seen below. ↓ They have the word "cake" around the lower bands of the bras and the clasps that make for easy access during the night. I've found in my short time as a mom that any thing that can make feeding and caring for baby easier is a good thing to have! And these clasps are so easy to find and handle one handed at night while fumbling around in the dark! 🙈 I also really loved that each of the bras had that night time/sporty feel but has regular bra hooks in the back for extra support. Like I said, anything to help with all these new changes in motherhood really does make all the difference!









Over the past ten days, little girl has certainly increased her feeds and these bras have been less than amazing! Between being sore, tender and almost double the size I was pre-pregnancy, these bras have been such a lifesaver during late night feeds, providing easy access when needed. In my opinion, the ease, comfort, coverage & support of these bras are top notch and outrank any other nursing bra that I have had the opportunity to wear my short time of motherhood. 

I'd personally buy more Cake Maternity products in the future & I'd recommend them to anyone looking for a reliable and comfortable nursing bra or accessories. Their company has a variety of products that include nursing tank tops, sleepwear, swim suits and reusable nursing pads.  Breastfeeding hasn't proved easy so far but it has definitely been made easier because of Cake Maternity's gracious gift to me & baby Ellie. 💖 



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