40 WEEK BUMPDATE!


I am sad to say that I am hoping this is the last BumpDate for little Ellie girl. I am filled with emotions and I can honestly say this has been such a journey with life changing perspective that I hope to build on as a mother to our daughter.

As my due date has come & gone, I can admit that I feeling very anxious and sad. I am worried. I am antsy. I am constantly thinking the worst about the path ahead. Jimmy has been so supportive reassuring me when I am quiet that everything is going to be okay when the time comes to meet our little girl. I feel supported. I feel loved, but I still can't help but thinking the worst. So many people have become supporters of us these past 40 Weeks that I can't brag enough how good we truly have it.

I feel her moving constantly and its going to be such an adjustment when she's no longer in my belly. As much as I'm going to miss her, I am so ready for this to be over. I am ready to meet her and see Jimmy become a father. I want to see her face & her little features. I want to kiss her fingers and count her toes and take in every second with just her and Jimmy. With any luck, we'll get to meet her soon!

As for our BumpDates, here's to our last! 💝




How Far Along: 40 Weeks & 6 Days
Total Weight Gain: 25.8 pounds total gained as of yesterday.  
Maternity Clothes: Living in sweat pants & maternity t-shirts these last few days.     
Sleeping: I'm not sleeping. I am way to anxious and I have been having pretty awful dreams lately so I'm trying to keep positive while closing my eyes.  
Best Moment This Week: Hearing little girls heartbeat Monday at our appointment.  
Movement:  She's still moving, slower and more controlled as she's running out of room but she's still inch worming along in there.  
Food Cravings: No cravings, I haven't really had an appetite these past few days. I'm still carrying really high which makes it hard to eat more than few bites. Not to mention indigestion is pretty constant. 
Sickness or Health: I feel good physically, mentally I'm drained. I haven't even gone into labor yet & I'm so tired. 
Mood: 😶 ⇈⇈⇈
Pregnancy Wisdom: I'm carrying a fully formed human. Pretty crazy right! 
Weekly Milestone: My midwife says she's around 7lbs and really long like her daddy & her Grandpa Vilis.

I've really been lucky these last 40 Weeks. I haven't had a hard pregnancy per say and my baby is healthy thus far so I have to question why am I complaining? I guess I'm just ready not to be recognized for my pregnancy anymore and ready to start feeling human again. I know it will take time, it took nine months to get here and it will probably take just as long if not more to get back to pre-pregnancy but I'm so ready. I'm ready for people to stop touching my stomach and I'm ready for strangers to stop questioning me in grocery stores. I hate to admit it, but I am. It may sound mean and out of character when everyone has been so nice but I'm just keeping it real. Mentally, pregnancy has me exhausted these past few weeks.

We have our hopefully last appointment tomorrow with our midwife before we are going to be scheduled for induction, which is another rollercoaster of emotions for me in itself.  Maybe we'll get lucky and get sent right to the hospital from our appointment tomorrow? A girl can dream, but I'm not holding my breath. I'm hoping for good news or any kind of progress. 

In closing I wanted to thank all of our friends & family for all of your support this pregnancy. We are so appreciative and we can't wait to show Ellie all of the love you've showed us! Even through my rants above. We really do appreciate it! 💕 Please pray & wish us a smooth appointment and an even smoother delivery or induction if it comes to that. 


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2 comments :

  1. Sending positive vibes to you! And a fast easy delivery! I loved seeing your journey through pregnancy and can't wait for the new journey ahead!

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  2. Thank you so much for the support! I can't wait! :)

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